Dear Rhett,

Dear Rhett,

You are growing by leaps and bounds. I love hearing you talking and hope you will always call your fingers, “yingers” and your blanket your “uh-uh”. these things make you unique and I love those aspects most of all.

You have become such a great big brother. If Bella cries for more than ten seconds you are at my side telling me to,”Go get her, Bella’s cryin'” You are a master at doing all types of things for Mommy, like fetching diapers for Bella and throwing things in the trash. You will even give Bella her paci if I can’t get to her fast enough. I love how much you love her.

I only want one thing from you my sweet big boy. Give in. Let’s use that potty. Nothing will happen if you poop on the potty, on the contrary you might feel better that you don’t have to hide in your room for some poopy time. You won’t have to wear diapers anymore and get to have some awesome SpongeBob undies just like Wyatt’s. I was heart broken tonight when I saw the panic in your face when I came to your room and asked you what you were doing. You knew I wanted you to use the potty but you just couldn’t do it, and you knew you had been trying but things just weren’t working out for you.

Mommy loves you. My baby boy. You will get it I know you will, just sometime before college please?


It’s my mind that’ll get me in the end.


That’s me. I said that I would try to get a blog posted every day for a month but I didn’t. Rhett got really sick with a fever so between taking care of him and nursing every two hours I kinda let my blog slip in between the cracks.


So now instead of saying, “Of course I’m going to set some unreasonable goal for myself.” I’m going to write a blog when it comes to mind. That’s a much better plan. Otherwise I might as well let pigeons peck out my eyes. That sounds fun.

I always try to get to bed by 11:30pm at the latest now that Bella is here. When I get there my mind wanders and I end up thinking of ways to get Rhett to use the potty, what to cook for dinner and how I would have told off that girl I saw at the grocery store who gave me the stink eye for buying my kids a box of doughnuts.

Don’t judge me.

So I’m laying in bed last night and it’s raining cats and frickin’ dogs outside. Before I went to bed I checked the weather and we were under a tornado warning. I should have never done that, because now I was lying there in bed listening very intently to the rain and wind outside my bedroom window.

That’s when my mind began to wander.

Was that a train noise I heard? Because if it was then there is a tornado coming. Holy shit! How am I going to hold onto both of my babies while the roof of our crappy apartment is ripped off. Oh yea I know I’ll put the baby in my baby carrier. CRAP!! It’s in the van. Oh yea I will lay my fat body on top of both of them, or better yet I’ll lay in the bathtub and have Chris throw our mattress over us, me and the 4 kids sitting in the bathtub with a king size mattress over us. But I’m claustrophobic how will I sit in that tiny tub with all of them……… that’s when I fell asleep,(since it had stopped raining)
And I dreamed of High School.
Damn. My mind is going to take me over one day.

Maybe one day I will be done with diapers…

I tried this summer to potty train Rhett. He didn’t get it and my carpet was suffering way too much to continue, so I stopped. I swear I didn’t want two kids in diapers and yet here I am trying to keep two kids dry and clean all day.
So instead of buying yet another pack of size 4 diapers, we picked up a pack of easy-ups and decided to give them a go. We also got a big bag of Skittles and did a little praying.
Rhett goes potty…he gets a skittle. It seems to be working, with #1 that is. He is still having a hard time getting the concept of putting #2 in the potty. That gets so frustrating. How do you tell a kid AND get them to understand how to poop?
Well this morning I told him that I really wanted him to try. And guess what? HE DID IT!!! So he got a hand full of candy and we called everyone who didn’t mind talking about poop on the phone so he could get praised and feel like he accomplished something big.
Then he did it again tonight!!! Something is sinking in. I hope anyway.
Rhett also tells me tonight as I’m pulling out some Cars undies out of his chest of drawers that he “Hates that kind, and he was going to pee in them.” So I picked out some with Woody on them. We don’t need him peeing in them just because he doesn’t like the ones he is wearing. JEEZ!!!
I hope it goes okay and that he is getting the hang of it because he turns 3 in less than a month.
Here’s to hoping and lots of potty time!


Not only have I had a busy day, I’ve had a migraine on top of it. It started with a three hour blood glucose test first thing this morning then home for an hour only to head out again for my 6 week ob check-up.

My daily blog is falling short because I just don’t have it in me to sit in front of this bright screen for one more minute.

Hopefully tomorrows will be better and I will be migraine free.

First Smile

Bella is really coming into her personality. She has started to coo, which is the most precious thing I have ever seen a baby do.
This morning bright and early she laid in the bed with me smiling and cooing and it was just heaven. Tonight as I was doing a bit of this and that around the house Chris was spending a little time with his most favorite girl and boy was she putting on the charm for him.

It is amazing how someone so little can wrap someone so manly.


Today was such a lazy day. It rained most of the day, and that kept the house in a dark and dreary state. I laid in the bed with Bella most of the morning. Bella sleeps in her bassinet at night but sometimes in the morning I put her in the bed with me and nurse her. She is so tiny laying there between me and Chris. I think she likes sleeping in our bed. She stretches out with her arms as far over her head as she can get them.

I love watching her sleep.

I never thought.

Why is it that my 2 yr old and 1 month old always have the uncanny ability to poop at the same time, 5 minutes before I have to leave to pick up the oldest two from school?

That is my question of the day.

After I picked up the boys from school today I looked in the rear view mirror and saw something I never thought I would see. Four children. When I would day dream about having a family, I would have 2 kids, a boy first and then a girl. I always wanted it that way, the boy before the girl. I wanted my daughter to have an older brother to protect her. I may have gone a bit overboard with the boys but in the end my day dreams fell in line. Now it didn’t all happen in the order that I had thought about. You know the house with the picket fence, dog in the yard, then the kids. I know that it doesn’t have to happen that way in order for me to be happy. I’m pretty freakin’ happy at the moment and I haven’t bought a house yet, and I don’t have that dog or the fence. That’s okay with me. I know that one day I will have the house. Maybe not the dog. I’m not sure I’m ready to take care of a dog so my cat will have to do.
I never thought I would drive a minivan. When Chris first suggested that we think about getting one I thought,”Well at least we will have plenty of room for the boys(at the time 2 boys) friends.” Now that idea is gone with all the seating in the van.
I didn’t think I would ever be “That” Mom. You know the one who wears her slippers to pick up the kids from school? That’s me. Thank goodness I don’t actually have to get out of the car when I pick them up or I would get stares. More often than none lately I have been wearing my PJ bottoms to pick them up as well. A lot of times I forget I have them on as I rush out of the door to pick them up. Oops.
I absolutely beyond a shadow of a doubt never expected that I would live my days wondering when someone was going to poop. Or when someone was going to STOP pooping. I can carry on a conversation about poop with anyone and not think that poop might not be what they want to talk about, because to me it’s just life.
I’m sorry if I’ve talked about poop to you, or have said it too many time on this blog right now.
As much as there are these thing I never thought I would do, there is one thing I’m glad I do that I never expected. I never expected to love four people so much in all my life. I never thought I could love someone as much as I love my first born. Then came my second and I loved him just as much as his brother. Their brother came and as soon as he was born I could never imagine what my life was before he was in it. It was like he had always been there.
Then came little girl. She completed what I thought was whole already. She was the missing link, fourth times the charm and all that jazz.
Boy I never thought I’d be where I am, but I’m loving every minute of it!